For many, Christmas is a time of wonder and cheer. Whether it's spent soaking up the sunshine in a Santa hat and red bikini or drinking hot chocolate by a fire, the festive season is one of joy and love.

Comedian Tanya Hennessy has always been one of those people.

"We're people who went to New York for Christmas because we just love Christmas. I decorate four Christmas trees… It's my thing," she told Mamamia 's No Filter .

But for seven years, the day she loved so much carried a darker undercurrent.

Each December became a painful marker of time — another year without the baby she desperately wanted.

"This year would be our eighth Christmas without a baby," she reflected.

"Christmas has always been a really tough time of year, because I love it so much... it's like, damn it. We

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