Marshawn Kneeland's girlfriend gets vulnerable in her first Instagram post following the death of the Dallas Cowboys' defensive end.

Catalina Mancera, who is pregnant with the late NFL star's first child, made a tribute post on Instagram on Monday, November 24 with photos and videos of their relationship.

“I’ve been holding off doing this bc I don’t want to accept this as my new reality,” Mancera wrote. “I still have a glimpse of hope Marshawn will walk through our front door singing and dancing to the music he was listening to in the car. This isn’t my life anymore, I’m now living my worst nightmare. Marshawn was more than just my boyfriend he was my best friend my muse and my reason.”

Kneeland died of an apparent suicide following a police chase earlier this month.

“I feel like I

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