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FRESNO, Calif. (KFSN) -- Pulling back the curtain on his life, Brian Rice, President of the California Professional Firefighters Association, details his inner turmoil, battle with addiction and even an attempt to take his own life in a new video to members.

"I was right there, I thank God," says Rice.

Full of emotions, for the first time sharing his personal life story. This, after he says four active duty firefighters died by suicide in the last 90 days in the state of California.

"My hope and prayer are that we never lose another firefighter to suicide in the State of California

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